happy-like lupron day to me
Posted by emilythehopeless on January 14, 2009
so today starts nightly stomach injections of Lupron 10 units.. i wonder what will come of this.. i used to get sooo excited when starting Lupron because it means suppression is almost done, and stimming almost starting. not so much excited this time. just going through the motions.
i often wish i was an old woman, sitting in my rocking chair, looking back on my life.. some days i’d rather be looking back than ahead. it’s easier to recall feelings, rather than feel them for the first time. the journey of life is really a pain in the ass sometimes (pain in the stomach starting today however). i know when we are raising our child that i will look back and realize it was all worth it. and obviously living through this part means i get to live through that part. i will appreciate every second.
ETA: hm.. spotting has become heavier with tons of cramps, to the point where i would (if not on bcps) call this the beginning of AF… i don’t understand, i have NEVER had this happen before. i emailed dr. b again asking if i should bother with the last 3 bcps.. i mean what’s the point if i’m already bleeding?
ETA again: dr. b said to “forge ahead”.. grrr.. three more days of bcps..
Mermaid said
I know how you feel and you’ve said it really well. I often thought I’d long to fast forward to being a grandparent, just so I know it will all turn out ok. Then, I could live my life in memories. But, with my luck, I’d forget the best parts. Instead, we have to just struggle through the crappy times and hope for better days. Hang in there. Here’s hoping Lupron treats you better than it treats some people!